After, during, and before most interactions my main thought is: How is this my fault?
How did I get here? What did I do to make him mad? What am I doing that’s not working? What didn’t I say that caused this? What did I say that caused this?
On one hand, it puts me totally in control. On the other hand, I’m not actually in control of everything. So I should stop pretending.
The world doesn’t revolve around you, ya know.
Maybe things are going poorly because of other people. Maybe things are going poorly because of you. It could go either way.
How do I know which is right? How do I know it’s not my fault? How do I know I couldn’t have changed things?
How do I know it’s not my fault?